For the first time ever in my 22 years of life, I can truly say that I'm HEART BROKEN, and I'm THAT girl...the 'broken hearted girl'. This is one of the most painful feelings in the world, and I don't like it, the feeling feels endless and literally heart pounding pain.
Dear God, please give me the strength to not feel like this anymore...Make me a stronger person, allow US to get through this, allow me to get through this, and most of all, give me the strong Faith and Patience. Amem.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Friday, August 21, 2009
The questions game...
Is this all fun and games to you?
What do you want from me?
Where do we go from here?
Is this how it is?
Miss you. 2 words, that's all.
What do you want from me?
Where do we go from here?
Is this how it is?
Miss you. 2 words, that's all.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Come away with me...
I'm really in NEED of a get-away...Fresno is depressing me right now totally putting a downer on my mood, and it's not helping.
Monday, First day of Fall Semester & the surprise of my week...can't say I was excited, and I can't say it made my day, but now I'm wondering, "What now?"...him and I , we're good, so we said...but are WE? I don't know...this is sooo frustrating, endless, tiring, emotional, draining, unpredictable...any more adjectives?
Monday, First day of Fall Semester & the surprise of my week...can't say I was excited, and I can't say it made my day, but now I'm wondering, "What now?"...him and I , we're good, so we said...but are WE? I don't know...this is sooo frustrating, endless, tiring, emotional, draining, unpredictable...any more adjectives?
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Things I want you to know...
Instructions:
1) List things that you want to say to people, but never will.
2) Don't say who they are.
3) Never discuss it again.
1. I'm not okay, okay?!
2. I've NEVER cried over someone as much as I have for you.
3. I know I should move on, but there's something inside of me that just keeps holding onto you. I'm stuck.
4. August has been the suckiest month this year.
5. My friends think your a jerk for putting me through this; waiting for you, telling me how you feel and then telling me you're not ready, but there's no reason
to be angry with you and makes it hurt even more. I think you're amazing.
6. I feel like you hellaaa played me.
7. I'm hurting inside, literally.
8. You've made me an emotional wreck.
9. Things are gonna get better right?
10. There's so many things I want to say to you, but you won't let me.
11. I hope you feel as down as I do right now, maybe even worse. Mean, right?
12. When I was with you, I couldn't breathe, the good kind though.
13. Me being a girl, my period, being stressed out, and crying is not a good mix.
14. My Facebook status' are about you, I hope you know that.
15. You're hellaaa childish, I hate that we can't even talk.
16. I miss the nightly convo's and 5:30 wake up calls =/
17. Beyonce's 'Broken Hearted Girl' is my song, I've become the broken hearted girl.
18. I'm sorry for being selfish, but is it bad that I just want you all to myself?
19. I'm blessed to have met you.
20. I haven't felt cute at all this month, thanks. My eyes are always puffy, and
21. I'm always thinking about you.
22. You broke your promise =/
23. I'm waiting for you. Please don't make me wait too long.
1) List things that you want to say to people, but never will.
2) Don't say who they are.
3) Never discuss it again.
1. I'm not okay, okay?!
2. I've NEVER cried over someone as much as I have for you.
3. I know I should move on, but there's something inside of me that just keeps holding onto you. I'm stuck.
4. August has been the suckiest month this year.
5. My friends think your a jerk for putting me through this; waiting for you, telling me how you feel and then telling me you're not ready, but there's no reason
to be angry with you and makes it hurt even more. I think you're amazing.
6. I feel like you hellaaa played me.
7. I'm hurting inside, literally.
8. You've made me an emotional wreck.
9. Things are gonna get better right?
10. There's so many things I want to say to you, but you won't let me.
11. I hope you feel as down as I do right now, maybe even worse. Mean, right?
12. When I was with you, I couldn't breathe, the good kind though.
13. Me being a girl, my period, being stressed out, and crying is not a good mix.
14. My Facebook status' are about you, I hope you know that.
15. You're hellaaa childish, I hate that we can't even talk.
16. I miss the nightly convo's and 5:30 wake up calls =/
17. Beyonce's 'Broken Hearted Girl' is my song, I've become the broken hearted girl.
18. I'm sorry for being selfish, but is it bad that I just want you all to myself?
19. I'm blessed to have met you.
20. I haven't felt cute at all this month, thanks. My eyes are always puffy, and
21. I'm always thinking about you.
22. You broke your promise =/
23. I'm waiting for you. Please don't make me wait too long.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Goodbye Summer...
This is the last week of so-called "freedom". School starts again on Monday and in a way I'm somewhat excited, now I have thaangs to do, "people" to see, and things to keep me preoccupied and not think about my current situation, annnd my late nights will consist of homework and readings...Oh joy.
Let's re-cap this summer shall we? Okay! I must admit, that this summer wasn't all that. A few highlights I must say were my summer "fling" and of course, the 95th Anniversary weekend. Both in which totally made Summer '09 a hellaaa memorable one. The summer fling I have to admit was amazing, I can finally say that I had one, and thank you Michael for being a part of it. Although I'm still hurting inside, I know that you're still worth the wait, and whatever happens in the future, I only hope for good things, whether or not it's with you or without you. The 95th was an amazing experience, and I'm glad I was able to witness it with my family, close friends and what was it? 17,000+ brethren. The lesson was amazing along with the GEMNET presentations, and the broadcasting of the 95th Anniversary Celebration in the Philippines and special message from Tatay Erdy. God's presence was among us at the HP Pavilion, and it was a great feeling to have felt it. It was definitely a weekend I wish I could relive over and over again... I can't wait for the 100th!
Until next summer =]
Let's re-cap this summer shall we? Okay! I must admit, that this summer wasn't all that. A few highlights I must say were my summer "fling" and of course, the 95th Anniversary weekend. Both in which totally made Summer '09 a hellaaa memorable one. The summer fling I have to admit was amazing, I can finally say that I had one, and thank you Michael for being a part of it. Although I'm still hurting inside, I know that you're still worth the wait, and whatever happens in the future, I only hope for good things, whether or not it's with you or without you. The 95th was an amazing experience, and I'm glad I was able to witness it with my family, close friends and what was it? 17,000+ brethren. The lesson was amazing along with the GEMNET presentations, and the broadcasting of the 95th Anniversary Celebration in the Philippines and special message from Tatay Erdy. God's presence was among us at the HP Pavilion, and it was a great feeling to have felt it. It was definitely a weekend I wish I could relive over and over again... I can't wait for the 100th!
Until next summer =]
Friday, August 7, 2009
Patience.
"Some things are worth the wait..."
So now, the waiting game begins...(Well, since Wednesday)
Please don't take too long with your issues, I'm here, I'm willing to wait...
Patience is truly a virtue.
So now, the waiting game begins...(Well, since Wednesday)
Please don't take too long with your issues, I'm here, I'm willing to wait...
Patience is truly a virtue.
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
I don't like this feeling...
I felt it coming, I just didn't realize that it would come so soon...I knew I shouldn't have gotten involved, I knew I shouldn't have fallen so quickly for you, but I DID, and now look what's happened, I'm stuck in a little rut, and I'm waiting around for someone who I don't know will even come back to me. I put my heart out there, and now there's no taking anything back..UGH, this makes everything so much more complicated and complex. Me & You, we're a good thing, I know it, I just hope you realize it before it's too late. But for now, I'm swallowing my pride, and letting you deal with whatever you need to deal with, and bury whatever you need to bury up that's been holding you back. I'll be here, I guess, waiting around for you...
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