Monday, October 19, 2009

No relevance

It was a very good weekend, I must say! District volleyball was awesome, didn't do as well as we hoped we would, but at least we beat 2 locales of the 3 in our conference, but apparently you have to win all 3 to move up to quarterfinals. Regardless, the woman's team was amazing with a few minor setbacks and drama the past week we were great! Can't wait 'til next year! It was nice to see all the loves and family that I haven't seen since the 95th, I've really missed them, like reaaally missed them. LJay is back home this month too, oh and so is Ian. It's always nice seeing the BEM's when they're on semester break and come 'home', wish they could stay longer, but that's the life! Ohhh the ministry <3

October has been good to me so far, cut off a few people in my life who are no longer needed or I guess should say were never needed to begin with; they were taking up too much space. HA! And this month has given me a few people whom which I feel will forever have a place in my heart. REAL TALK.

Monday, October 5, 2009

"You're insecurities are for my mere entertainment"

I'm usually not the girl who's insecure or even gets insecure...but for some reason, when I saw her (not even knowing if it's really his ex), but this girl, she's gorgeous! Well, I think so at least. I know shouldn't even be thinking like this, nor should I even make myself feel like this but once I asked what her name was, Damn! It hit me, it hit me hard. He could possibly be back with her, she could still be in love with him, he could be trying to get her back...I mean what would I know, right? I've become those people I make fun of...the one's who I say, "Your insecurities are for my mere entertainment" WOW. I don't like this at all. This is why I DON'T like lurking into people's past relationships, this is why I don't ask about ex's...Was this some kind of sign? Me just raaaaandomly stumbling upon her picture, and me asking Mhyrees who that girl was?

I just want to forget about June 13th-August 4th...for now at least.