Blessed and then some.

I'm truly blessed with amaaaazing friends and family. At times I know I take them fore-granted because I'm literally alwaaays busy with all my church and school stuff, and I don't get a chance to talk to them as much as I would like, and I'm sure the feeling is the same vice versa. I feel like I've taken them even more fore-granted this past month because of my 'emo-ness', and it's obvious that I'm not myself right now, but I'm glad my friends and family always make that extra effort to always check up on me, and continuously do so, even when I don't let them. I love them, thanks for caring you guys <3

I'm slowly letting go and slowly coming into the realization that this whole 'being patient' process might take a while, and like I said, "I'm willing to wait" and I'm sticking to my word, I really thought this was gonna be an easy process, you know, wait a few days, and maybe a week or two at the longest...but people need time to heal, and I can't be as selfish as I would like to be, I'm being considerate to his feelings as he did with mine. Absence makes the heart grow fonder, right? But we'll see though, right? Only God knows what the future holds, but I'm praying for bigger and better thangs and to keep me strong no matter what happens...

So last night I was talking to Mhyrees; she just turned 21... She's ONLY a year younger than me, but when she was younger, I thought of her as just this little girl who was annoying, and when I would see her at school or even at church, I would just say HI to be nice, but other times I would just try and avoid her...HAHA Sorry Mhyrees! But I never thought she'd have so much significance in my life. The girl has most def. grown up. It still amazes me with the amount of maturity she has. Even though we're far away from each other, she is always in total 'Mama Mode' and always checking up on me, and is always willing to give me advice but its never too overwhelming and is always considerate of my feelings, especially when I'm hellaa emotional. Last night, it hit me, and she is FORREAAL my sister, we've always said we were adopted sisters, but she IS my sister =] Thaaanks for everything, MAH-RES =]

THANKFUL

HAPPY LATE-THANKS GIVING WORLD!

My life is a real blessing, I'm thankful for everything..I have been given so many opportunities, so many chances, and so many blessings, and sometimes I never really get the chance to say 'THANK YOU' to the one who makes these things happen; Our Almighty.

I feel so selfish sometimes, and even just so ungrateful...There are so many other people in this world that don't get the things I receive, and sometimes here I am, complaining to my hearts desire, "My rooms to small, we only have one bathroom, our house doesn't have enough space, I need this, or I need that, I want this car, I need another one of these, etc.etc. etc."...but I am truly blessed.

My lifestyle is just fine. I've become more appreciative of the things I have, the things that have been given to me are truly gifts from the One above. The life I live, is the only life I'd ever live, I'd even live it again. This life in the ministry is the only life that is for sure, and the only life I have lived. Look at the economy, even though it's at an all time low, we're still here, we're still living, and we're not on the streets. Even though times are hard, my family always seems to manage. The generosity of some brethren, and even most especially our family and relatives, they always seem to help us, and sometimes we can't give back to them, but I know in their hearts it doesn't even matter to them, and it really warms my heart and brings a smile to my face that God uses them as instruments to help us and keep up happy and comfortable.

I've also been blessed with great friends and relatives who have become even closer than close to me. A group of friends who keep me grounded and keep from going insane. They've stuck by me through my worst times, and I'm positive they'll continue to stick by me in the future. They forreal are the ones who have been nothing but real, honest, and trustworthy.

So Dear Father, THANK YOU once again, you've always provided me with all I need, THANK YOU to our family, relatives, and brethren who always show their generosity.