PEACE OUT 2009....HELLOOOO 2010 =D

HAPPY NEW YEAR! 2010, you're finaaaally here! I've been waiting endlessly for you!

I can't believe its been 10 years since we were all counting down to the year 2000, its crazy how fast time goes. I feel like it was just yesterday when people (of this world) were panicking that the world was gonna end in the year 2000. 2009 was definitely a craaazy year. So many ups and downs along the way, and it was thee most LOVE-HATE-HATE-HATE-LOVE relationships I've ever had with a year, if that even makes any sense.

As I look back on the year, I feel as if I let it slip by to fast and didn't embrace it as much as I should have towards the end. I wanted SO BAD for this year to be over because of all the crying and heartache and mourning I went through, but it was truly a learning experience.

I've learned that it's okay to let people into your life, but still keep those who continue to stay with you close to you, and to just cut people off when THEY no longer feel that they don't need you around or are appreciative of the sacrifices you do for them. I no longer considered myself as a 'young adult' this past year, I've learned to deal with things on my own without the help of Daddy & Mommy, but to still deal with things in a manner that is respectful, responsible and in accordance to Him. I realized that I really CAN'T live without having a duty; I took a break from KADIWA this year, and it was the hardest and longest 3 weeks of my life. My relationship with my parents and siblings has grown even stronger everyday, and I truly appreciate it.

I'm so thankful for my friends and family who have still stuck by me along the way. They're the ones who always dry my tears whether their near or far, and comfort me and support me along the way. I've gained new friendships and ended a few that really were no longer needed. I've grown closer to a few friends whom I once drifted away from, and extremely thankful for 5 women who I know will remain in my life forever.

2009, you were filled with so much laughter, crying, crying, laughter, heartache, and mourning, but all in all, I'm THANKFUL. Another year passed and another year now awaits us. Time for a fresh new start and new memories.

HELLOOO 2010, I can't wait to see what awaits me!

The Perfect Love (From Atchi Micah) =]

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone- To have a deep soul relationship with one another- To be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But God to a christian says, NO, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and content with being loved by Me alone- With having a intensely personal and unique relationship that I have planned for you You will never be united with another or anything else, exclusive of other desires or longings I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing- One that you cannot imagine. I want you to to know the best. Please allow Me to bring it to you. You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things- Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I Am. Keep listening and learning the things I tell you. You just wait. That's all. Don't be anxious. Don't worry. Don't look around at the things others have gotten or what I've given them. Don't look at the things you think you want. You just keep looking off and away up to Me, or you'll miss what I want to show you And then when you are ready, I'll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than you would have dreamed of. You see, until you are ready and the one I have for you is ready (I am working even at this very moment to have the both of you ready at the same time) Until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me, and that life I have prepared for you, you wont experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with me, and to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union of beauty, perfection, and love, that I offer you with Myself. Know that I love you utterly. I am God. Believe it and be satisfied.

FINALLY!

DECEMBER is finally here, and there are only 28 more days left in 2009. I Can't wait for this year to be over. I'm ready for a fresh new start and other things to look forward to. I'm done with you, 2009, you were good to me, and then disappointed me when I was at my highest peak...But that's life right? We move forward and no longer look back =] Hopefully if all goes well next year, I'll be out and about. Wishful thinking I know, but I've never once abused my vacation "rights" so I'm sure everything will go well. Its time for me to see more of the world on my own, I've never traveled anywhere with out my parents, and I think this will be good for me. I'm always craving for independence, so here it is...that AND if the Admin. allows this, and if the means are there....PNW (Canada & Seattle), PI, Midwest, & SoCal here I come!

WHY?
1. PHILIPPINES: I've never been on an international without my family. I've only been there once, last time was in 2001, and I'd really love to go to PI for a special service like Thanksgiving or HS.

2. PNW (Canada & Seattle): Brittany's there! She's lonely, so we're gonna visit her and her kawawa-ness. And there are rumors of there being cute boys who will spoil us while we were there =]

3. MIDWEST: Its where my childhood memories are, and I miss it. It's homey there, and I miss everyone. I'll try to make my rounds; Wisconsin, Chicago/Bloomingdale, Minnesota, Colorado, Texas and Kansas City...HOPEFULLY!

4. SOCAL: is always a MUST. HOME is where the heart is, and it's always been there <3

And of course there will be the usual weekend get-a-ways, which I didn't do much of this year. Its hard living SO far away from the bay area and everything and everyone else I love in NorCal.

So this was kind of pointless, but it makes my plans LEGIT, and I DON'T just talk, I'M A DO'er....SOMEONE HIRE ME...traveling is not free =/

Satisfied =]

HAAAAAPPY TURKEY DAY EVERYONE!

I'll keep this short and sweet...
Thanks for EVERYthing looves; Daddy, Mama, Gelly, Samm, Family, friends, BFF's & my PK giiirls. Ya'll mean the world to me....straaaight up <3

Battlefield

"FIGHT YOUR OWN BATTLES"
Self explanatory, right? Too bad some people who SAY they do, DON'T.
I'll leave it at that.

RIP Daisy Huerto

I never thought I would even get attached to a family pet, and then we brought Daisy home. Even though she was the biggest diva and was a pain in the butt to try and potty train her, I loved her. I loved her since the first time I layed eyes on her, she was my baaabygiirl. She was always so loving and entertaining every moment we spent together. I'm going to miss how excited she would get with her favorite squeeky toy and how excited she would get when any of us would come back home from being out of the house for the whole day, and her sully tricks she learned on her own to get our attention....Me, Gelly & Sam loved her...Daddy couldn't stand her, but I know deep down inside he loved her just as much as we did. She was MY first real pet (we had Tigger, but she belonged to Sam) and she only lived to be 8 months old, she was still a baby =/

During the end of my emo summer Daisy was always there for me, she was the only one who saw me cry over Michael, and in the middle of the nights when I'd cry, I'd go outside to the hall and just hug her...and she'd hug me back, because she knew how sad I was =/ She would always accompany me whenever I'd pick up my brother from school, and would always be so excited to hop right into the car with me. She was my passenger at my loneliest and lowest times =/

I love you Daisy Huerto.

"We've come a long way, huh?"

You know that feeling you have when you've like someone for so long, and then you finally let them go, and then suddenly BAM! They slowly come back into your life? That feeling makes me nervous and anxious and excited all at the time. I'm getting that 'butterflies in my stomach' feeling all over again. =] He's never let me down, and has always been there for me. And now...he's the one leaving me. I always thought it'd be the other way around. Our family would get the call, and I'd pack up and leave and he'd finally realize how much he'd miss me when I'm gone....I guess I just want more time, more time to spend together. And this time, I'm gonna tell him how I feel. No more holding my feelings back, no more second guessing this weird and beautiful friendship that we've developed. No more "WHAT IF'S"...


4 years of ups and downs...what more could I ask for, right?